Am I beautiful to you?
I hope I am
Because beside you I look hideous,
Next to you handsome, charming gentleman.
And I hope my smile is like a beacon
When you are suffocated
By the past shadows and illusions
Of your mind;
I hope my voice is like a lullaby to you
When I let you forget yourself
And lose yourself in my words
Whenever I speak to you.
I hope my eyes are enlightening to you
Whenever you look in them and smile,
Trying to forget your responsibilities
And the world on your shoulders.
But I hope my body is desirable to you,
Whenever we bloom our passion
Until there is nothing but 'you' and 'me'
And the world is only a swirling vortex.
I hope my personality is wonderful to you,
Where you can absorb yourself into
My emotions and thoughts
Until you feel safe and secure.
Am I beautiful to you?
I hope I am,
Because I want to relieve your pain
With everything I have.
I decided that I am going to officially hate 2 am now. You know those people that say 'hate is such an ugly emotion'? Well, I got something to say to them. Perhaps, yes, they are right and it is a very ugly emotion, I'll give them that much. But perhaps, my ****ING BRAIN SHOULDN'T LET ME STAY UP SO LONG, HOW ABOUT THAT, HUH?! Nothing new in my rants today, except that I will forgive my brain just THIS ONCE since I had a good day (when, or how, did that happen?!).
You know that game where you say a word and the other person has to say another word starting with the letter of the previous word? Like, 'tiger', the next word will have to start with the letter 'r' like 'rabid', which then means that that word has to start with a 'd'. Yeah, me and my friends played that and it was a lovely atmosphere and I felt like I belonged there, finally. It's so lovely being able to touch other people without having to worry that they'll move violently away and look at you strangely. Bullying has stopped and it seems like currently school is going good. The only thing dampening my mood somewhat is the fact that something bad is bound to happen. It's just the rule of my life. Something good happens, something bad follows; something bad happens, something (moderately) good follows. But I won't let that deter me in enjoying my time thoroughly while I am content like this!
On another note, I decided to write a poem each day in May as a tribute to tlhopkinson for her enormous contribution in April. I think that I'll dedicate each poem to someone, although I'm not sure yet. I'm going to have my exams in June, and May should actually be the month where I revise, but I'll try my best like tlhopkinson did, just because she deserves it for all her hard work and pure determination, and yet still managing to post on my poems over the last few weeks! Technically, this could be considered my first poem of the month since it's already May over here... except that I don't want to and just say that this will be my last poem of the month of April. There.
Anyway. Tomorrow's going to be really (note sarcasm) great with... 3 and a half hours of sleep. ..........WHEN DID IT GET SO LATE!!! **** YOU, TIME! WHY DID THE HOUR HAVE TO BE INCREASED BY ONE, ANYWAY?! THE MOTHER@@+!@¬! I WILL FUC--
(The server has been disconnected for using extensive and possibly insulting language. Felicity's Reason and Logic Department is truly sorry for any convenience and-- Why are the Instinct and Swearword Department banging on the door, Levelheadedness? Levelheadedness? Why are you glaring at me? Level-- Yickes! We are truly andutterlysorryforalltheunintelligablebabblingdonebyFelicityand-- LEVELHEADEDNESS DON'T THROW THE CHAIR AT ME---!
You connection to Felicity has been cut off. Please reconnect with Felicity as soon as she does not feel like falling asleep at any available surface.
On behalf of Felicity, her Politeness Department in collaboration with the Impatience Department, Apologies Department and Gratitude Department, give their sincere thanks for reading the poem and their apologies for all the ramblings on this topic.
Have a wonderful day,
Signed by: Felicity's Brain)
This is a very nice, romantic piece! This poem has a lovely, soft feel and a wonderful message. I really enjoyed this! On another note... I love the rants and "Felicity's Brain" moments! I never thought of having so many very important departments like politeness and apologies and etc... They are often ignored, aren't they? Again, lovely poem!
Bravo Night_Sky, I nearly enjoyed the poem as much as I did the rant from Felicitys' Brain. You have obscured a thoughtful poem by writing a vary funny rant that seems to be ongoing these days. The picture of your mind detonating in such brash fashion immediately after giving the gift of life to a poem at two am is hilarious.
Dr. KE's advice- Try the mainstay of your writing at a time more affable to your schedule. Limit yourself to no writing post eleven pm. Occupy your mind with things of a progressive nature that will enhance your life...........schoolwork, housework and such unfun things are the proxy for keeping Felicity's Brain happy and healthy..............................
@Night_Sky_Of_Feelings In this case I think it was worth staying awake if that's what inspired this poem . Romantic, well thought out, and powerful poem indeed! Is deep and I enjoyed this.
Laying down at night and not being able to shut down I can relate to... :sigh: & just breathe... sometimes I get awesome ideas... sometimes the world just swirls in my head... sometimes I think of mundane things... sometimes big things.. sometimes scary things... sometimes past things, sometimes future things... and then when I fall asleep I dream or wake up like 5 times. Honestly, I suck at sleeping most nights! Lol but I make up for it by sleeping like 12 hrs at least one night a week. My advice is to get more sleep so you don't lower your immune system! So try not to let it become a habit!! Harder done than said sometimes I know .
I love love love the server and brain departments bit at the end! Excellent rant... I felt like I was reading your newspaper or something "Felicity's Nightly News and Feelings" .
@SerenaLantha - Thank you so much! Yeah, the Politeness Department and the Apologies Department are often quite ignored, aren't they? Just like the Manners Department, LOL.
@Killerelite - LOL, I never thought of it that way. I'm just generally weird and my brain is differently wired than others, and I generally just switch from one thing to another. For example, I speak really respectfully with my teachers, but once they're out of ear-shot I do swear quite a lot. It's funny in a way, I suppose
But Dr. KE, my brain suffers a disease called Inspirational Inconveniencesis. That means that my brain will cook up ideas whenever it's inconvenient.But I suppose with housework and homework I'll be able to sleep alright, LOL.
@uniquelylost - Thanks. I know the feeling. Although I can't think of such things when I'm just lying down, trying to sleep. I usually only get one idea and write it down straight away.... and then I get distracted by the internet... and then half an hour passes.... then an hour.... and before I know it, it's 2 am, LOL. I usually balance out my immune system by eating a lot of protein, so while I have little sleep, I'm still relatively healthy... although some disagree on that since I look like a walking zombie after two days without sleep, LMAO.
Yeah, I'm quite happy with that rant, too I tried to do something more exciting than the usual, and this is the first thing that came to mind, LOL. Perhaps I should actually call those rants "Felicity's Nightly News And Feelings", would actually be fun in a way, ha ha
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