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I've been here for a while now, but I don't think I have ever done an introduction.
February 23, 2013
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I was invited to join this site from someone who commented on a poem I wrote for my sister on my DA account, and I've been coming here posting my poems and thoughts on life ever since.  

My name is Amber, I am currently attending college with the plan of becoming an Anthropologist/Archaeologist.  I highly respect wolves and hope to help them past times like these where they are being hunted for the wrong reasons...  

I used to be very shy, I was too scared to talk to people who I believed would judge every aspect of me.  Now though, I don't talk not because I am shy, but because I have no need to talk most of the time.  I would rather sit quietly and observe a situation or the people around me, and I someone wanted to talk to me they would have to approach me first unless I got the overwhelming urge to start the conversation first.  I suppose you could say that I like to learn through observation more than interaction, but in necessary cases I learn through both.  

One thing that happens to me often that I used to find annoying, but now it just amuses me, is that I am a woman who often gets mistaken as a man.  It is likely because I don't speak or behave like a 'proper lady', I don't like to dress very feminine, and I look like my Father (I think its safe to say that I'm a spitting image of him, at least when it comes to his face).  I also enjoy keeping my hair cut short, and I have heard that having short hair draws more attention to the face, so that could be another reason.  

I'm a spiritual person.  I believe in animal guides and other spirit guides.  I also believe in many Wiccan ideas because they are soo focused on the aspects of nature (and I'm a big nature person myself).  Although I sometimes wish I am, I am not 'sensitive' to the presence of a spirit.  I also believe in past lives, but have not had any 'flashbacks' involving them, just hunches or ideas.  I can do accurate oracle or meditation card readings for myself (but it's an easy thing to do for anyone who wants to try it).  Being spiritual has taught me that I need to learn to trust myself and my instincts, which I believe was a key factor in getting to be who I am right now.  

I have been told that I give good advice when it comes to spiritual things.  I think back to some things that I have told people and wonder how I had come up with the things I said, but at the time of saying it, it seemed almost like a simple and natural response; like I have said it many times before.  

I currently have 3 tattoos and plan on getting more in the future.  To me, my tattoos are how I tell my story in ways that are unique to me.  They also serve as reminders of things that I have accomplished or things that I have learned to believe in that have changed me for the better.  

That's about all I can think of to share for now.  I suppose now would be a good time to say Thank You to whoever it was that introduced me to this site.  Its a place I can go and share all kinds of things without the worry of being judged.  So again, Thank You.  

"He who does not know can know from learning"
February 23, 2013
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I'll offer an official "welcome" and just wanted to mention that I like that you included details about yourself... I'll remember those when I read your work.

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February 24, 2013
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Welcome, officially! I agree-including details about yourself was a good idea :) I look forward to reading your work and getting to know you! I love wolves too, and I agree that observing is much better AND more interesting than interacting. Also, your beliefs sound very interesting! I have only studied very little about Wicca, but I definitely do think that its ideas on harmony and purity in nature are intriguing. I hope you enjoy your time here! :)

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February 26, 2013
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Welcome officially :)

Informative intro, I have a hard time writing intro's, not because I struggle writing about myself or that I have nothing to say, but because the beginning alludes me, yours made me realize I never wrote one here!

If I'm around people I don't know than I am more of an observer, unless I have to interact for whatever reason which I have to quite a lot but it doesn't bother me. I think I was slightly shy around people I didn't know when I was younger but cared less and less as I got older. Either way, you can pick up on a lot about people just observing. Now if I'm around people I know at times I could go on and on LOL.

"Being spiritual has taught me that I need to learn to trust myself and my instincts"

I completely agree with that and yet I have found it is hard not to question yourself sometimes...

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March 13, 2013
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A little slow getting here, but welcome Aj. I too have an affinity for wolves. Though I am a hunter and have spent a great deal of time in their midst, I have developed a profound respect for them. After moving to Wisconsin and hunting Minnesota, Alaska and Montana I started to learn a great deal about these highly evolved predators. The WI DNR introduced the North American Timber wolf to Northern WI some years ago and they had thrived. Much to the chagrin of farmers and people that raise livestock.

Not being a biologist my education is from what I've seen and have not seen. I know that their presence makes game animals very wary and unlike hunting in the mountains of PA and WV where I grew up, game animals that live amongst wolves are educated to the nth degree in regards to all predators. I watched a pack form over a period of five years where I hunted whitetail near Superior WI. Started with a male and female and grew to seven animals in five years. Which seemed remarkable as the DNR had different numbers published.

My own belief is that the numbers of actual wolves int the wild supersede the estimated numbers. A friend of mine that is in the military and works Ft. McCoy in west central WI tells me of a wolf pack there. Definitely an animal to be reckoned with. Having moved back to PA. I miss hearing the haunting howl as I head to my tree stand in the pre dawn hours in the fall hunting season. Wow, I've really gabbed on here, so welcome....................Write often.

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March 13, 2013
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Killerelite said
A little slow getting here, but welcome Aj. I too have an affinity for wolves. Though I am a hunter and have spent a great deal of time in their midst, I have developed a profound respect for them. After moving to Wisconsin and hunting Minnesota, Alaska and Montana I started to learn a great deal about these highly evolved predators. The WI DNR introduced the North American Timber wolf to Northern WI some years ago and they had thrived. Much to the chagrin of farmers and people that raise livestock.

Not being a biologist my education is from what I've seen and have not seen. I know that their presence makes game animals very wary and unlike hunting in the mountains of PA and WV where I grew up, game animals that live amongst wolves are educated to the nth degree in regards to all predators. I watched a pack form over a period of five years where I hunted whitetail near Superior WI. Started with a male and female and grew to seven animals in five years. Which seemed remarkable as the DNR had different numbers published.

My own belief is that the numbers of actual wolves int the wild supersede the estimated numbers. A friend of mine that is in the military and works Ft. McCoy in west central WI tells me of a wolf pack there. Definitely an animal to be reckoned with. Having moved back to PA. I miss hearing the haunting howl as I head to my tree stand in the pre dawn hours in the fall hunting season. Wow, I've really gabbed on here, so welcome....................Write often.

Hey, I always love talking about wolves.  I don't know too much about them yet but I would like to learn a lot more about them when it comes to things like why they are good for the environment and such.  I feel that would be especially important now with all the wolf hunts going on.  

I think their howl is the greatest thing to witness in person. If you are close enough, their howls are so deep that it almost feels as if you and the ground around you is shaking slightly.  

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March 15, 2013
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I officially welcome you :) It was interesting reading about you a bit, about your behaviour and belief in particular. I myself
am a shy person around strangers, but that is because my younger childhood years have thoroughly and totally screwed and messed me up. My mind always makes me believe that everyone is judging me whenever they even glance in my direction. It usually affected presentations since I get downright paranoid when too many people are looking at me intently. It isn't only simple fear that I have--I'm downright terrified whenever it happens.

As a result, I am socially quite awkward and never really know what to say around new people. I'm just there, usually eavesdropping on others' conversations but usually thinking "when the hell can I get out of here?". I'm not antisocial, but like I said, my younger childhood years have royally screwed up my psyche, and as a result I just can't deal with humans other than trying to help them give advice and sit there and listen while they spill their guts :)

Also, everything you said about spirituality and animals guides? I completely agree with you. Me and my friend once went to a Shaman, where she put us on a journey to find our animal 'representation', or guide. It was so amazing, and I'm constantly researching about such things, like what each animal means in different cultures, or what the colors of chakras symbolizes, or what each color represents in us, or what emotion. I am fascinated by it, although I've never heard of Wiccan, although I'll make sure to look it up.

I am looking forward to reading your poetry, Amber. :)

 

I'm breaking constantly, continuously and always, it's just that nobody sees it - but I'm fine with that, as long as there's something to fix me, too. ~ Me
March 18, 2013
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I live in southern NH and have never really seen or heard any wolves. My house is located right on the MA border so its suburbs here, not crazy country but a little bit of woods and some fields so there's some wildlife, deer, raccoon's, hawk's, owl's, and so on. In the summer hear lots of coyotes making a racket late at night in a nearby field... must be some wolves around i bet.. I have lived and often visit more north from here, up towards the mountains I've seen moose and even a lynx once. I am a gun owner and enjoy the nature of a hunt but could never shoot an animal unless I was going to use it or unless I had to and don't really like deer meat.

@Night_Sky_Of_Feelings  What animal representation did you end up being?

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March 19, 2013
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Me? Well, mine is a lion with white wings on its back called Chemera, LOL. The Shaman had told us that our animal guide could be practically anything in any color, including mythical creatures. My best friend's animal is a black bear :D It really fits since she has really, really dark hair and eyes. The Shaman had told us that once we met our animals, we could ask them two questions. I asked mine what his/her name was (its voice had no gender in it) and what it helped me with, since she (the Shaman) had told us that out animal guides give us something that we lack at times. It was really amazing because the whole journey had been breathtaking. Although I did get into an argument with my animal just shortly after I discovered it XD

I'm breaking constantly, continuously and always, it's just that nobody sees it - but I'm fine with that, as long as there's something to fix me, too. ~ Me
March 19, 2013
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Yours is like a Griffin! http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Griffin

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April 2, 2013
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Griffin huh? I heered tell Griffins taste like Chikkin. They in season now?

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