I feel like I didn't waste today,
but it doesn't matter because I know I'll waste tomorrow.
I feel like God gave me a chance,
but who cares? All I did was screw it up.
This is how I feel.
I don't expect you to like me,
I don't even like myself.
I don't want you to love me,
you're better off loving someone else.
I feel like things could get better,
but I know it never does.
Not for me....anyway,
'cause this is how it is.
I wish I could mean more to you,
but I'm simply not worth your time.
I wish I was more of a man,
but....I'm just a boy stricken blind
I'm hurting inside, drowning in self pity.
but then I close my eyes, and I see everything....
...everything I can't see past my fading world.
Like the memory of a friend,
saying I have so much to offer.
I'm sorry I said I didn't believe you.
The past suffocates me, there's so much I can say I've done.
What's WRONG with me? How can I feel so worthless?
"It doesn't make you less of a person"
is what I needed to hear.
Thank God you said it.
"I believe in you"
They say so much,
yet I never believed in myself.
Now that my chances are slowly dying,
I'm finally feeling like maybe all I need is one more
"You saved my life"
I still cry to the thought,
that you might be dead, if I wasn't there.
I don't know what I said,
but I'd never take it back.
"I think you're that kind of person"
When I said all I wanted was to make a difference.
It meant more then you know,
that it came from you.
So many people, saying so many things.
I know I should be grateful....
And this is how it is.
But I'm not
I'm a coward,
yet so unafraid.
I'm a monster,
and I care so much.
I have no heart,
but somehow I can love.
and I'm strong,
and somehow I was right,
but also wrong all along.
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